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fuck everything. i don't want to fucking live anymore. give me a reason. - reality is a matter of choice
actuality+perception=reality
stevefarrell
stevefarrell
fuck everything. i don't want to fucking live anymore. give me a reason.
It's over,
You don't need to tell me,
I hope you're with someone who makes you feel safe in your sleep,
And tonight,
I won't kill myself trying to stay in your life,
I got no distance left to run.

When you see me,
Please turn your back and walk away,
I don't want to see you,
'Cause I know the dreams that you keep,
That's where we meet,
When you're coming down,
Think of me here,
I got no distance left to run.

It's over,
I knew it would end this way,
I hope you're with someone who makes you feel that this life is a life,
One who settles down,
Stays around,
Spends more time with you,
I got no distance left to run.

I feel: crushed crushed
I hear: Blur - No Distance Left To Run

5 things // do the thing
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scourgeoe From: scourgeoe Date: March 31st, 2004 04:10 am (UTC) (Link)
Unfortunatly your icon says it all.
Fact seems to be, the more caring, the more love, the more...well basically the more willing you are to fall in love and give everything to a person, the more likely it is that you'll get hurt.

I guess what it comes down to is how happy that makes you in the meantime. Because without the feelings being in love brings you, I suppose we all live in boredom and safety.

If its true, and you know it and find it out, you just cant, no matter how much it hurts, let it stop you feeling that way again in the future.

Coz if the fear wins, whats the point?

Sorry, think I may be edging towards my own issues, but they apply.

*hugs* mate.
Know where to find me to talk if you need it.
stevefarrell From: stevefarrell Date: March 31st, 2004 06:19 am (UTC) (Link)
I might add you to MSN, if you don't mind. I've been meaning to for a while but I just didn't get around to it yet. That is, presuming you have MSN.

I am mr_holtz1980, which would probably have been my lj name if I hadn't had an lj before finding the Bronze.

We've all been in this position though, me at least three or four other times, I just honestly didn't think that I'd go through it with her. It was always her not wanting to mess things up, her who was scared of me breaking things off... blah.

I'd turn gay but that'd just mean another half of the world's population to be fucked over by.
scourgeoe From: scourgeoe Date: March 31st, 2004 06:28 am (UTC) (Link)
I have msn.
Under my real name and initials.

I've added you, so it should give you the option to add it.

*sigh* women eh?
And yeah, I had similar thoughts, its like Xander...

"What if you just start attracting male demons?"
stevefarrell From: stevefarrell Date: March 31st, 2004 06:36 am (UTC) (Link)
maybe I'll just go back to my plan of becoming famous and wooing Amber Benson through collaborating on a musical project with her.

you'll be added when I'm at a computer that actually has MSN.
cucumbersarnies From: cucumbersarnies Date: March 31st, 2004 08:41 am (UTC) (Link)
oh, steve, i'm sorry. there is nothing else that i can really say other than i am sorry and {{{hugs}}}
5 things // do the thing